I miss the way things used to be
bila terbaca post-post orang yang tengah hangat bercinta, cemburu pun melanda diri ini. HAHA. I'm jealous. maklumlah, single pula ni sekarang. hoho. I admit that I miss having a person who actually care about me. A person who will always be there for me. A person who I can talk for hours on the phone. A person who will send me a 'good morning and good night' wishes. oh God, I miss the way things used to be. I miss 'US'. I miss having someone who I called as 'boyfriend'. and saya rindu kena panggil dengan panggilan 'sayang, baby, cinta, bini, mama'. saya rindu ok rindu :'( aih sabar sejalah. mungkin ada hikmah disebalik semua yang terjadi ni kan? :') sudah ku duga semua ini akan terjadi. hal yang saya takut akan terjadi selama ni akhirnya terjadi juga. saya always ingat janji-janji kau selama ni. saya always ingat apa yang pernah kau cakap sama saya sebelum ini. semua itu masih fresh lagi di otak saya ni :D kecewa. sangat kecewa. tidak saya sangka kau sanggup buat saya begini. sokeylah. saya tidak kasi salah kau juga. maybe it's all my fault. janji sama saya yang kau akan hidup bahagia ok? saya disini akan selalu doakan kebahagiaan kau walaupun kebahagiaan kau dengan orang lain sebenarnya buat saya menderita :D forever? promises? perfect?
I just realize that nothing is forever. 'forever' only exist on dictionary but it doesn't exist in our life. people always made promises. I mean, fake promises :) I wonder. do promises really meant to be broken? why does promises exist if people can't keep their promises? there is a saying that promises are made to be broken and lies are meant to be kept. yeap. it's true. don't make promises if you can't keep them. it will only hurts someone feelings :) and how about perfect? well nothing is perfect. nobody is perfect. I'm not perfect. you are not perfect. so we don't have the right to judge someone's life. everyone makes mistakes. everyone has their own story. and never compare yourself or others to other people. because everyone has their own struggles, own fights, and a different path that they chose to get to where they are. can't sleep
ding dong ding dong. its 5:31am now and I'm still awake. huwaa =.= I can't sleep. I was trying to go to bed but there is so many things running through my mind that I just can't go to bed. I can't stop thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking and thinking. I don't even know what I'm thinking about. HAHA. come on eyes. I'm tired already. and please brain, stop thinking those nonsense things. I want to sleep. I'm really tired :'( I want to get some rest. can I? hmm.
Name: Qelviey CJY ツ
Life is like a roller coaster. It has its ups and downs. But it's your choice whether to scream or enjoy the ride.
